My Blog Title is Apt Again

Well, whaddya know.  I’m pregnant.

It has never taken us less than 8 months to conceive before.  This time, first try.  We are thrilled and a little stunned.  I’ve always been a little skeptical of the stories you read of how people who have experienced infertility/loss often get pregnant quickly after a full-term, healthy pregnancy — I mean, maybe it happens to some people, but I was sure it wouldn’t happen to me.  Well, here I am!

For now, of course.  I know as well as anyone that first trimester miscarriage is a distinct possibility, as are losses at later stages of pregnancy, as are all manner of other health problems (I’m still at elevated risk for ectopic pregnancy and placental abruption, for example).  But for now I’m pregnant, and that’s a very, very good thing.

We’re a little shocked at the timing — I mean, we were trying to get pregnant, obviously, but we just didn’t expect it to happen this quickly.  Of course our minds started jumping to the possible reality of having a new baby join our family in January.  Two under two — yikes!  It would also throw a monkey wrench into my tenure plans (I’d been on track to submit my materials a year and a half from now), but… we’ll deal with that.  Our family is more important than my tenure case, and if I wind up using both my clock extensions and spending nine years on the tenure clock, so be it.

I was also just starting to cut back on pumping at work this week, but for the moment I’m still breastfeeding/pumping four times a day, which is going to start feeling like a lot as I get more pregnant.  But… what if I wean, and then miscarry?  I’ll be mourning the loss of a baby simultaneously to mourning the loss of a wonderful breastfeeding relationship.  I suppose I’ll just keep doing what I’m doing (i.e., weaning from the pump during the day, since I would never mourn the loss of a relationship with my pump!) and see how things go over the next few weeks.  I’ve got a viability scan scheduled for a week from Monday, after which we’ll know a little more (and, if all goes well, I’ll start back on Lovenox).

What a weird and wonderful week it’s been.  Pregnant again.  Holy cow.  Here’s hoping this little bean sticks around!

28 thoughts on “My Blog Title is Apt Again

  1. Mamalife

    My 2 cents.
    1) Stop pumping as you say. you don’t like it much anyways.
    2) Once you start lovenox or any medication, call up MOtherisk to see if it harms the baby. If yes, you will have to wean off completely.
    3) Even if you can continue, first trimester and nursing was quite painful.
    I hated it each time my son latched, it would hurt like crazy and by the time I reached the end of the 1st trimester, he just stopped! Perhaps he didn’t like the taste or the way I winced in pain!

    I get your emotions, esp since we all carry infertility baggage, and the what if it didn’t work is always on our mind, We don’t want to lose what we have!

    Good luck, I am hopeful it all works out wonderfully. We all deserve to get pregnant and carry the baby like most people do!

    1. lyra211 Post author

      Good advice all around. I’m not worried about the medication, thankfully — if I’d had a C-section with my son, I would have had to stay on Lovenox after he was born and I was already told that it wouldn’t have been a problem for breastfeeding. Two reasons: (1) it’s a really large molecule, which is part of what makes it safe for pregnancy (it can’t cross the placenta), which means it also won’t wind up in breastmilk, and (2) the reason you have to inject it is that if you tried to take it orally your digestive system would break it down and keep it from working, so even if it did get into breastmilk in small quantities swallowing it won’t hurt baby either.

      I’ve heard such stories about first trimester nursing pain that it’s freaking me out a little — even the LLL website suggests that you use the same pain control breathing methods you used in labor, which just sounds awful! (I thought they were mostly useless in labor anyway.) If I get that far, I will probably be tempted to wean. In the same article, I did read that something like 2/3 of toddlers self-wean during pregnancy, so your son sounds totally normal.

      Thanks for the thoughts!

    1. lyra211 Post author

      Thank you! Feels a little unlucky to be accepting so many congratulations already, but I guess that knowing that getting pregnant is only half the battle means that, well, half the battle is won! Hopefully the other half will be won too… we shall see.

  2. jwhitworth7

    Congratulations!! Welcome to the club! Sending you lots of good thoughts for your scan on Monday! It is crazy how it can happen so quickly isn’t it? It’s like your body gets in this mode….if only we didn’t have the suffer through our losses to get there. I do hope everything goes smoothly over the next few weeks and I do hope you’ll keep us updated! Love to you and your family!

    1. lyra211 Post author

      It is completely crazy how it can happen so quickly. Here we were, girding up our loins for some long pregnancy campaign and then… bam! Uh, now what?!?! First trimester waiting game, I guess! Thanks for the good wishes — will definitely keep you updated and hope to read your good news as well. 🙂 Love to you and your family too!

  3. xykademiqz

    Yay!!! Fingers crossed that everything goes perfectly. I have heard/read (unscientific accounts) that fertility often seems to go up after a successful pregnancy; some say that’s because the reproductive system gets a reboot, some say that’s because your body knows what to do now! Either way, best of luck!

    1. lyra211 Post author

      Thank you!!! Lovely to get such good wishes. And I hope those unscientific accounts are right in my case — I’ll take all the positivity I can get.

    1. lyra211 Post author

      Well, thank you for the congratulations… although unfortunately as you’ll see if you read the more recent posts, I wound up miscarrying this pregnancy. Now just waiting for my period so we can start trying again.


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